Love&Loss
Where to begin. Loss is something I fear so very deeply. I've lost so many treasured loved ones and each leaves a hole in my heart. I feel my breath catching as I think of them. It doesn't feel real most days. Certainly I can just give them a call and they will just pick up the phone, right? Surely I'm just imagining they are gone and they aren't REALLY gone. But reality hits. Death is so final. SO final. We all know this. But our minds sort of trick us most of the time. It tries to protect us by just pushing those thoughts away but it's true. It is SO final. And that reality hits SO many times. It still hits me, many years later. My mind is trying to be kind to me but it isn't doing me many favors. When that reality hits several times a day, the pain comes rushing in all over again and tears sting my eyes. It's exhausting. Loss is exhausting. It's so emotionally draining. All the tears. All the pain. all the grief. all the sadness. Then, mo...